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Remembering The Good Old Days

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I took my early years for granted. In elementary school, I couldn't wait for middle school and in middle school, I couldn't wait for high school. Now, I'm graduating in a few weeks, and all I want is to go back in time. Life was simple. I didn't have to worry about paying for college and growing apart from my friends. In a few months, I'm going to be just another broke college kid whose closest friends are hours away, and that's kind of scary to think about. I miss the games we played at recess and the playdates my mom set up for me. Thinking about all the possibilities my future holds is overwhelming. I am mad at my younger self for wishing the years away. My mom always told me to just enjoy my childhood because before I'd even know it those days would be behind me, and now they are. So I guess the biggest thing I've learned is to always listen to my mother (laughing crying face). Maybe if I had, I would be playing kickball at recess instead of reminisc...

Weekend Update

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My weekend was jam-packed with stuff. Over the span of Friday and Saturday, I had three water polo games which were pretty exhausting. I scored in two of them, and I was kicked out of the third. The referees were being kind of ridiculous and in my opinion, I don't think I should have been rolled. After my two games on Saturday, I drove out to my Aunt and Uncle's house in West Bloomfield to celebrate my cousin's first communion. The food was fantastic and my sister and I sat on the beach for a while which was relaxing. Later that night, I was asked to prom which was exciting! It was a complete surprise and it definitely lived up to my expectations. Prior to him asking me, I had told him if he didn't do a good job I would say no as a joke, but I think he took it seriously because he did a much better job this time compared to when he asked me to homecoming last year. He spelled out Prom in candles on my porch and had a poster with fairy lights! Sunday was another busy day...

I Like My Name

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I find it funny how certain names have different connotations. On Tiktok there have been multiple trends revolving around different names. They've included:  girl names to stay away from, guy names to stay away from, mom names who are the strictest, along with many more. Honestly, most of the time they're true. I don't know if people with certain names just live up to the stigma surrounding their names or if it's just a coincidence, but I know first hand that guys with J names are bad news, Emilys are stuck up, and some of the strictest moms have the name Cindy, Susan, or Lisa. (my mom's name is Susan so I can attest to that). My name never comes up on any of the lists which I'm kind of happy about because it means my name isn't super common (even though there are like five Kaylas at Troy High) and I don't have any connotation connected to my name. I've always liked my name. Growing up, my sister always wanted to change hers, but I always felt that m...

My Childhood Is Over

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For so long, I thought I had this great plan for my life after high school, go to the University of Michigan and then become a dermatologist. Anytime someone would ask me where I wanted to go to college or what I wanted to be I would recite that back to them. However, now as college is only a few months away I realize I don't actually know what I want to do with my life. Michigan is out of the equation not only because I was deferred, but also because I can't pay that much for my undergraduate if im going to grad school too. I'm stuck going to Oakland or Wayne, and because of that the first part of my plan that I had since elementary school had to be thrown out. With the first step of my plan gone, it got me thinking about the rest of it. Do I even want to be a dermatologist anymore? I started looking into the airforce because I've always wanted to fly a plane, but it's an eight-year commitment which is way too long. Also, I would probably end up with a spouse in th...

I Can't Stand Hypocrites

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I try to not be bothered by much and to let most things slide, but recently I've had trouble ignoring those who are hypocrites. I just don't understand why one minute people are preaching about something they don't like or find irritating and then the next minute they are doing that exact thing. I find that with covid people have turned into the biggest hypocrites. Over the summer my friend's mother would not let her daughter go in anyone's house, but then she would go to bookclub and wine nights with her friends in their homes. Just recently my friend had a birthday party with a few friends and the same mother called and told the mother that it was so unsafe for her to have people indoors for the birthday even though she allows her daughter to attend Waterpolo practices where there are no masks or social distancing. Some people need to understand that you have to practice what you preach. This is not just an issue with my friend's parents, it's politicians ...

The Power of Hands

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Back in I think eight grade my teacher would play Sarah Kay poems and we would watch her Ted Talks. I had never heard spoken word poetry before, and I really enjoyed watching the videos because you could hear and see the emotion in the poems. Her name stuck with me until now, and when we were told to pick a mentor poet, her name was the first to pop into my head. This poem, Hands , was the first one we watched back in eight grade so I remembered it the best. I always liked how she told a story about her life through her poems and then connected it to something else to show a deeper meaning. In this poem, she shares about how her and her Dad had a game of holding hands, and about the many things people use their hands for like writing and playing sports. However, she also shows the other side of hands and how they can be used for bad things that they were never meant to be used for when she discusses the Middle East and politics. My favorite part of the poem is when she discusses how ev...

I Actually Kind Of Liked It

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 When I first started my BBC book, I had no idea what it was about. I didn't even read the quick summary on it that we were supposed to. I picked Middlesex to read only because my friends in the class put it as their first choice. I had no idea what I was getting into when I opened the book and started reading for the first time. I guess I couldn't expect much cause I didn't even have the slightest notion of what it was about. I don't think I've ever read a novel with the level of detail and plot that Middlesex has. I'm still not convinced that the book is not based on a true story, and for that I applaud the author. Having just finished the whole 544 pages, I can confidently say I've never read a book quite like Middlesex . For a good third of the book, I thought a character had died and I just managed to miss the section where it actually said it. However, the character never actually died and was alive the whole time. They were just not talked about for...